Hey!! I’m still here!!

I don’t know HOW I have allowed myself to go almost FIVE months without blogging. Totally uncalled for and there really is no good reason. You have probably noticed over the last year to 18 moths, I’ve been less present on the blog and on social media. Especially when it comes to fitness and nutrition.

I didn’t make it public before, but since it’s winding down I feel comfortable sharing that since January of 2016, my husband has been working out of town. He’s not in another state, but the job site is a good hour and 20 minutes away from home. We are VERY fortunate that our camp is somewhat close to the job. Home is about 75 miles, camp is only about 25. He doesn’t get a company vehicle or gas reimbursement, and having to start work at 7 a.m. means that when he does stay at home, our alarm is blaring at 4:45 a.m. So, week after week, hubby has lived at our camp and come home on weekends.

So, we’ve found a new normal these last 18 months or so. And I’m not gonna lie….it’s gotten old.

I know there are military spouses who say goodbye during a deployment and don’t get to see each other in person for months at a time. I am not trying to compare my situation to theirs (I know I have it MUCH easier), and I absolutely understand the hardships military families endure. But this is my situation and it’s been difficult. We have been lucky to have weekends together. But there is always so much to try to cram into a weekend from chores and To Do’s to leisure and fun.

I have done such a good job at keeping myself busy (seriously; something in my calendar at least 3 nights during the week and most weekends have an event of some sort) that there have been times I allowed excuses to get in the way of my goals. Actually, there has been plenty of time passed that included NO goals at all. Ridiculous.

I have never hidden the fact that I struggle with consistency and self-discipline. And let me tell you…while I am not in any way blaming my husband or his job (well, I can blame his job a tiny bit but it’s not his fault) it was pretty easy for me to let things slip. I don’t like cooking a meal for just myself, because I don’t want to eat leftovers for 3+ days. So, there were nights I ate popcorn for dinner. Or mornings that I slept in until it I had to get up and hustle to be ready and get to work on time. Guess what? I gained weight.

So, since January I have been working on myself and getting back to happy. I completed the Ultimate Reset (which I already mentioned in a previous post), I participated in a Made to Crave book study and loved it so much that I led my own group a few weeks later!, and most recently I’ve been testing out a few things diet-wise. I’m loving this journey of re-discovering myself and the new things I’m learning about food and nutrition and most importantly, how my body responds to various things.

One thing that struck me last week was a question one of my friends on Facebook asked: “Are you still a Beachbody coach?” That was a bit of a wake-up call to me. Why? Because I AM still a Beachbody coach…but I have certainly not been acting like one. I am supposed to be walking the walk (which, lately, I’ve been doing) but I am also supposed to be sharing my journey and helping others on their journeys. To be perfectly honest, I let myself become a bit embarrassed at how inconsistent I had been, so I wasn’t sharing and helping like I should have been. Facebook definitely is a highlight reel for just about all of us….and I am included in that. It’s a place where we share what makes us happy. It’s a place where I like to spread positivity and not rant and complain. So now it’s time for me to put myself back out there and share the good, the bad, and the ugly. If you’ve read this far (to the end! Hooray!) then I feel it’s safe to assume you will be along for the ride.

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The first few months of 2017, I have focused more on getting back to setting goals, eating more mindfully, and expanding my strategy to improve my fitness and build a leaner, stronger body.

In January, I completed the Ultimate Reset…and I realize I never updated the blog with my results. It was a challenging three weeks, as I knew it would be, but I definitely got back in touch with my feelings about food and reminded my palate that there are some vegetables that taste really good besides asparagus and brussels sprouts steamed and buttered. The only negative part for me was some of the food on the plan and the recipes provided. I didn’t want to spend money on obscure items that I was quite certain I didn’t like, so I repeated some meals. I burned myself out on squash and sweet potatoes….I ate those a LOT. Overall, I lost 11 pounds and I felt really good inside. It’s hard to describe the ‘inside’ feeling but it’s like I could feel how clean my insides were. I feel like that sounds goofy, and I swear I wasn’t stuck in the bathroom for three weeks. I just felt like things were working the way they should and the bloat feeling was totally gone too. Funny how I didn’t feel bloated until I wasn’t.

After the Reset, I did allow myself to fall back into some prior habits. While I don’t feel like I let things get totally out of control, I know I could have done better about staying on the wagon of clean eating.

I went back to using my colored containers from 21 Day Fix and I am still working to improve my consistency with those and also limiting my treats.

I started a new round of The Master’s Hammer & Chisel and am feeling good about pushing my body and lifting weights.

One of the best things I’ve done the last few months is join a private book club group where we’re reading “Made to Crave” by Lysa Terkeurst. The goal of the book is to help readers satisfy their deepest desire with God and not food. Our group is on Facebook, so we members are spread out around the country. We each bought a copy of the book and our leader posts action steps, thoughtful challenges, and instructions in a private FB group. She then hosts a weekly 30-45 minute zoom call where we can log on or call in and talk about the week’s chapters, nuggets we read that struck us, challenges we faced, and victories we had. The chapters are brief, so it’s a pretty easy read. The author lists a handful of personal reflection questions at the end of each chapter, and those help us dig in a little deeper.

I’ve enjoyed this group so much because not only has it brought me closer to God, it has brought me closer to a few women I knew on an acquaintance level and introduced me to others who started as strangers. It’s been a safe place where we can ask for encouragement and help, share a victory, and really be vulnerable about our struggles with food.

Just today, I faced a big challenge and I felt very weak. The boss brought doughnuts to work and they were on the department snack table just 8 feet or so from my desk. I had an immediate reaction of excitement when I saw them and she announced where they were from (the best in town, in my opinion). Less than a minute after my excitement, I felt weak…almost panicked. It was a feeling I don’t often feel when there’s a treat nearby that I want….I usually either just decide I’m not having it or I get up and grab some. There isn’t normally this moment of ‘What do I do?’ I went right to our group’s FB page, and posted: ‘Help!! The boss brought doughnuts!!’ And, if you use Facebook these days, you know that a post that short will appear in an extra large font on FB. Only when you type a certain number of characters does the text shrink to normal. It was laughable but I really hoped one of my fellow Jesus girls (as Terkeurst calls us) would jump on and see the notification and offer words of support.

One of the big things we are learning while reading Made to Crave, is to pause and pray when temptation greets us. We’ve learned that God created us to be creatures with desire. But we are to desire Him. He is stronger than any temptation, and he has given us more power over any food. While I drank my superfoods shake (that in previous doughnut situations I have finished and chased with a doughnut) I prayed that God would take over. I stayed put while co-workers picked out their treats, and reminded myself that I can have a doughnut anytime….this was a good time for me to practice saying “no”….that I needed to USE my willpower muscle in order for it to get stronger.

It was only a few minutes before one of my group members commented on my panicked post and told me to stay strong. Another shared some encouragement and also some info she just heard on a great podcast (Episode 236 of The Chalene Show, if you want to listen). I kept them updated and it really wasn’t long before the temptation passed. I had made a decision and I was going to stick to it. Around 10 a.m. the boss came and took the box with remaining doughnuts to the break room where they would no doubt be gobbled up quickly.

I felt strong and satisfied, confident that I could do that again. I was so grateful for what I have absorbed from the book and for the support I have from the other ladies in the group. We are nearing the end of the book but I feel a strong urge to read it again but maybe take it a step further and lead my own group. I know I can only become stronger in my faith and in my own relationship with food by helping others navigate through their journey.

I’m looking forward to more growth and self-discovery in 2017 because so far it’s been great.

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Woah, we’re halfway there…

January 26, 2017

I’m just over the halfway hump in my 21 day journey called the Ultimate Reset, and wanted to give a little update. If you aren’t familiar with the Reset, here’s the short description: it’s an intense 3-week program that cleans the system and ‘resets’ the body back to factory settings. The first week’s meal plan […]

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Getting out of a funk

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My last update was November 2; about 2 1/2 months ago. A lot has happened, and very little has happened. In the ‘lot’ category: snacks, take-out, fast food, wine. In the ‘little’ category: healthy packed lunches, meal planning, self-control, basically giving a hoot. I was in a funk and I didn’t really care enough to […]

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MCM 2016 ~ Mission Accomplished

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I’ve been feeling sorry for myself and beating myself up since running the Marine Corps Marathon on Sunday, October 30. So many feelings have swirled around inside of me, trying to claim a spot in my permanent memory of the event, that it’s taken me a few days to decide which ones would be allowed to […]

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Another week closer to MCM 2016

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Road to MCM ~ 18 miles

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It’s really been two weeks since my last training update? Absolutely. The last days of September were extremely busy as I volunteered all weekend at a local festival and directed a 5k. On top of that was my 18 mile run that I fit in Saturday morning, September 24. I had a running buddy from mile […]

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Missed run done!

September 19, 2016

If you’ve been following my road to the 2016 MCM, you may recall that I delayed my 12-mile training run this weekend. Saturday’s planned run would have to happen Sunday. My best friend Jenn and I had a blast at the Dixie Chicks concert, didn’t get a whole lot of sleep Saturday night, but we […]

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Tell me I’m not the only one…

September 17, 2016

Ever have something you KNOW you have to do…you’re not really looking forward to it but you’re not opposed to it either? It’s just something you have to do? Am I making any sense here? Hang on, let me take another sip from my caramel macchiato from The Bean.             […]

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